Happy Birthday to me!!! yay!! Party!! except I have to work today. meh.

Birthday: 2 weeks. Here's a link to my amazon wishlist, should you be considering a gift. Gifts are not required (or even asked for), but birthday wishes are always welcome!! :) <2

http://www.amazon.com/gp/registry/wishlist/6G2UYFRHK034/

posted in profile as well!

so i'm sitting here.
contemplating my life.
i am about to turn 21 and i wonder what's ahead of me.
i wonder about my ability of things after tomorrow. people will ask me "how old are you" because of how tall i am..."uhh...i'm 21"
it sounds so WEIRD to say that...wow
will underages ask me to buy for them?
will i be a stumbling drunk asshole who makes an idiot of herself?
or will i sit on my ass wondering whether or not to go out. i don't know. i don't want to be the drunk asshole or the moper. but i also don't want to hit the bars every night like it has happened to some people and they forget those that aren't yet 21. i don't know.
maybe i'm worrying too much. again, i don't know.

what really is ahead of me? grad school? law school? work? living at home with my ass-crazy parents? uhh...
i know one thing for sure....i will not be living at home if i can help it. i hate it at home - huh i wonder why i spent the entire summer in PA - for some reason i'm just not feeling the love from home anymore. my parents moved into another house - so there's no home where i used to live (someone else lives there now - the hedges are completely gone from the front yard that seemed to make the house more private.) they moved into another house which is just so fake i feel like i'm on tv or something - sooo not cool. so there's no home there either because my parents have become some tv family from hell.

god damn...maybe i'm getting all thoughtful and curious and bent out of shape over nothing. i don't know. this is too much thought for right now.